don’t want to ride this time
read some lines I wrote before the summer
you made my life sparkle in the mud.
not taking anything from anyone
just shine, that is okay
thanks for telling me that.
what I have pursued in my life might not be the right one for me
maybe I am losing the world and I am losing the people
maybe I am losing the valuable things that I am supposed to keep
maybe I released my grip too hastily to reach for nothing; the unworthy
but this is me; sad and stupid me. I couldn’t dissolve me into the timid water, called “supposed to”.
the moon every night different; ever changing but never evolving.
close or far,
you are there
gazing at my presence
with your calm luminance; in the dark.